So, I guess you all have private things going on in your life. I would too if I had a life. You see the truth is that I've isolated myself from everyone and I'm not exactly sorry, I don't even feel lonely.... just odd and unwelcome everywhere I go. I know that I have common sense, but I always seem to be doing every task wrong. I've been socially awkward since kindergarten and its only got worse. I can't keep behaving like everyone thinks that I should. I'm quite and overall not very complicated. I hate talking on the phone, texting, emailing all that jazz. So I'm alone. I try to get close to people, people try to get close to me, it goes on forever....someone is always uncomfortable. It's always unbearable. It isn't that I'm creepy or girly, weird, crazy, gross, or anything like that. I'm just private. I'm myself and I'm afraid to adapt completely. I can't be what people want, but I can't just disappear either. I've been invisible before and a misfit and alien, but I've never been good or bad. I hang out in social limbo. I have a branch all by myself on the tree of everyday human life. I hope this doesn't sound too awful and whiny. Trust me I'm not brokenhearted about it most of the time. What about you? I mean, no matter how popular or how pathetic you are....you. You have to wake up sometimes from you pop culture opiate-induced sleep and think...."No body knows me, not truly." Right? Anyone have those off days where they are paranoid or distant and just wanna make up a song that you can't sing or jump up on a desk and scream: "WHAT'S THE POINT?!" Maybe I have more of those than most people, I don't know. So welcome to my projects and interest and all that jazz. I also hope to post a few stories and what not here as well so......I blog now....it's what I do.
Charily D!C!
Ok, I also watch anime, k-dramas and eat a lot of take out too, lol.
